I Thought I Forgave Him
When I see those cute cards at bridal showers asking for marital advice, I always write the same thing. Be quick to forgive.
He’s human. I’m human. We say stupid things. He can be an insensitive clod. I can stick my foot in my mouth faster than you can breathe. We have to remind ourselves to be quick to forgive.
When I consider how much God has forgiven me, how could I do anything but forgive? Yet, there are times when something someone says or does burns deep in my gut. Then, later, bad memories barrel up unexpectedly, leaving an ache bigger than the Grand Canyon. Sound familiar?
Sometimes we even make an agreement with our hurt. I’m entitled to be angry. He doesn’t deserve my forgiveness. He needs to pay. When the truth is, we’re the ones paying because we cling to past pain, nurse it, and rejoice in keeping it alive so we never forget.
When God showed me I hadn’t forgiven someone, it surprised me. I honestly thought I had. But now that He’d blasted his gigantic, loving spotlight over me, revealing an infection of the heart, I realized I needed extreme-healing. I couldn’t fix it myself by repeating I forgive him, I forgive him. Who was to blame didn’t matter. It was me in need of a Savior who could heal my heart. On my knees, face to the floor, I asked God to forgive me for holding something against someone when He’d forgiven me of so much. Like cancer, un-forgiveness had sneaked in. Now, it needed to go. In a moment, God’s love and mercy poured over me like rich, heavenly oil, bathing my soul. Such sweet relief filled me. PEACE…like I’d never known. Because of His touch, I was changed.
Forgiveness can happen in a moment. The first step is allowing God’s love and healing to pour through us. And the rest is up to Him. He wants us to be healed—and to be free.
“For if you forgive men when they sin against you, your heavenly Father will also forgive you. But if you do not forgive men their sins, your Father will not forgive your sins.” Mt. 6:14-15
WINTER’S PAST: When Winter speaks at a conference in Coeur d’Alene, Idaho, and her ex-husband shows up, she must face two things. Her past. And the fact she hasn’t forgiven him. But, Ty has radically changed. He loves God, humbly asks her forgiveness, and says he still loves her. Can Winter find it in her heart to forgive him? Is reconciliation even possible?
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What can I say except, “WOW!” It made for a very enjoyable weekend read. It made me laugh & cry … inspiring.
I love the redemption story in Ty’s life. The whole “second chance” thing is what Jesus is all about!
About Mary E Hanks: Mary loves writing stories of 2nd chances and about couples finding their way BACK to love. When Mary isn’t writing contemporary Christian romances, she’s a playwright and director for Youth Theater. She’s directed 24 full-stage productions and has written 19. She and Jason have been married for 38 years.
Mary’s blog is http://maryehanks.blogspot.com
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